Thoughts

... and am putting my thoughts in words again, today. Its a long tiring day, enjoyed myself and with many tiny thoughts crossed my mind. Yes, he is here just that we did not see each other. I have suppressed myself, so much that I know I can't handle anymore. He watched me broken down in tears, he did not lend a hand. He knows. I have forgiven you too many times just because I love you but you took me for granted. Call me stupid for trusting you as it was all because how much you have showed me and I totally believed that I am certain that you are the one. You filled me love, so much that I can forget the world, dropped everything around me and just slot you in whenever you are here. There is a point where it crossed my head that I might regret letting you invade me. You had me, you fooled me.

 I just couldn't understand why another lie :) I can take in no more. I am superbly disappointed that you did it again. You lied again. I love you, but not your lies. You cheated on me, you can do it again. I have told you everything I wanted to. It was a great time being with you minus the lies. I wish you were able to be honest with me and share yourself with me. Regardless the disappointment, anger and being hurt tremendously, I am true to you. I miss calling you Ahb. Now that I have to pull back and control, wrap up my feelings. I can't afford to fall any harder. Thank you for the experience and goodbye.